WHAT ANOTHER GIRL SPILLS

(let your mind rule you)

2005-09-29T02:19:00.000+08:00

STARTING TODAY. MY big big resolution.

THE DAY I NOT TOUCH THAT AWFUL CIGGY.

ILL STOP DREAMING.

AND

START TALKING LESS.

How difficult can this be?

on sale

2005-09-15T00:37:00.000+08:00

i almost bought this gramaphone the other day. no one thinks i should.

but i still want to!

bitter chase

2005-09-10T13:37:00.000+08:00

bitter chase

its moving and prancing and rushing and organizing
hard to imagine how much u hve done for nothing to achieve

whats worse is to face ur bed with no one beside
u realize u have neglected ur life for the best things for the others

something i can do for tomorrow..

to fall in love with someone close
to find love in someones eyes
to share darkness and secrets
to dream of the same hope
and comfort ur frustrations
that one love that gets u so high
to fall so completely
to feel the sweet embrace
to lose myself completely.

im anticipating for this to happen
and everytime i use lust to rehearse and spoil this bitter chase.
there are times i cant decide to pick someone up, brush him, or drop him.

keep it all together.
thru all other things i desire.

i wish it happened,
even when i had to push,
just to see how far it will go.

it never did turn warm.

its the one true thing i cant believe in.

before the sky is falling on me
its more than i can handle
try to bring more than i can have.

vision crushed
its closing in.
night lift up the shades
im weak and hungry from mercy
carrying the weight on my shoulders

words on fire
feelings in vain .

i will be the answer at the end of the lie.

this perfect girl

2005-09-02T23:58:00.000+08:00

this perfect girl

gives herself time to forgo all her insecurities
tries to plan her destiny
analyses her enemies
she cant compete
she cant deny

takes every step each time
watches any falling obstacle
just so she doesnt miss a step

soon she finds herself drifting.

her world is on fire
she has fallen from the lowest
shes not even been to the top.

she sees this coming.
this dirty little secret
shes embarrassed to see the truth.

shes tired
wants to give up this fight.
she s too drunk to believe

u will find the ans if u let it go
he says

face urself.

2005-08-05T13:36:00.000+08:00

brow and the slit eye

2005-08-01T04:06:00.000+08:00

german sherpard

Are you there?

2005-08-01T03:56:00.000+08:00

This site is almost non- active.

TRUTH:
ive prob too much happenings to write about and not know how to start!

FALSE:
same as above.

okok. i ve got a huge list of events ive gotta talk abt. this is definitely the ultimate chapter of my life cos so much has changed during this short period.

- my new living concept and mates
- what ever happened to my temper
- i miss larry melissa cole jd and isaqua
- keeping in touch seems hard with the time i have left for meself
- irene's place and finally getting there
- nadia arrival and staying over
- sentimental birthdays: im loved and getting older damnit
- my new chopard
- loving daddy and mummy more on daddy bday
- jean's new love adventure
- house parties
- my hammy passed away (sob) SOB AHHHiii.
- feeling like 18 again
- candid pple of 4 years of age
- chased by a dog and i almost drowned. i survived. my hp didnt.
- decision making gets bored and crampy. i want some directions!
- meeting hilarious personalities
- the reality of deadlines. come on man.
- binjai park
- spending time with my silly boy
- i miss travelling
- this world is made of depressing sensitive pple - negativity is brought upon oneself . hello there? dont get me involved
- cooking and cleaning at home ( a centipede made its home to one of our shoes and later in my bathtub while im at bath! )
- hunting and meeting new potential tenant (luff!)
- fooling around with pammy and jean
- the maldives trip fully sponsered!

AMUSE YOURSELVES

2005-05-02T13:31:00.000+08:00

http://www.putfile.com/media.php?n=Horny-Guy

http://www.putfile.com/media.php?n=Kicked-in-the-Nut

2005-04-27T00:41:00.000+08:00

few are those who can see with their own eyes and hear with their own hearts.

its a pity how anything and everything comes with a brand.

flowers affair

2005-04-14T18:08:00.000+08:00

I'm casting my flower roles.
hee!

acanthus mollis (callous)

pompous pollen (pretentious)

bebelGilberto in singapore

2005-03-31T10:46:00.000+08:00

"simplesmente"

sexy. period.

obsession

2005-03-04T07:29:00.000+08:00

obsession

look out for that walking stick

2005-02-20T13:03:00.000+08:00

the stickman

1 of e characters for my greeting cards!

REAL change

2005-02-18T21:59:00.000+08:00

ill be viewing an apartment this sunday!
far off from that dreamhouse on the coast of cos.
This one's located at grange rd
who knows how many cars will be passing
or maybe none even at a single stroke.
it better be a spacious kitchen and hall
and a clean and neat bedroom.
This will be only the 1st i'll b deciding from
with my scintillating cousin. . .

oooooh my chattering mind
nervous
excited
anxious
excited

They say attachment IS escape.

April's gonna be loads of changes for me!
big big jumpstart
moving and adjusting
to suffice my needs
no more comfort zone
no more predictables

im SO damn looking forward to the imponderables.

a timeless state

2005-02-18T20:04:00.000+08:00

if you look outside on the sea
everything is wonderful
a part of me will like to adrift
into the wilderness
in a fresh mind
get carried away
amidst the scent of the sea waters and sand
and the sounds of the crashing waves.

i dream of the house on the coast
the white grand piano by the shore
and the lush lavender field.

Like that dream house
its up on the hill
in the woods facing the sea
an undisturbed paradize in california
called GUALALA.
I stayed in an uncle's house
he watched me grow up
and is part of my fondest memories

They named the house WOODSEA
and welcomed me with a hot bubblebath
surrounded with candles
champagne and strawberries with brown sugar.
MMmmm.
With the sounds of running warm water
birds and leaves brushing against the window
I was living like an aristocrat
who seeks comfort in her hideaway every weekend!

There were deers passing by
as we walked down on that star struck night
with e 2 dogs hanks and dextor
to that cozy corner where we got that pepperoni pizza.
I prepared mixed veges, chinese style.
we dined at the balcony admist the stars.
Me also got to know more about the astronomy of the stars
truly, most definately, indeed a timeless state.

SO we snuggled back to e sofa watching movies -think it was duplex and dummy
with ice cream on top of the best apple crumble pie
& wine but of cos.
i fell asleep by the sofa
its a long journey to WOODSEA after all.

As we travelled back on road
i witnessed thousands of seals migrating
on the cliff of GUALALA.
it's e most sensational view and libarating feeling!
everything seemed surreal.
We brought hanks and dextor to e shore
picked sticks, played fetch.
THere 's something about e dogs in california, they're such perfect companions.

ALAS,
They brought me back to the other house i stayed
with the most wonderful and fun couple i know,
2 huge majestic dogs JD and ISAQUAH
I'll talk about them e next time.

2005-02-15T19:03:00.000+08:00

let a thought flower!!!

tall order

2005-02-03T04:25:00.000+08:00

i m so in love with pitted olives...

2005-02-01T15:17:00.000+08:00

WHAT GALS' GD FOR.

guerrrilla: eh! guess who i met just now?

deluxm: who who

guerrrilla: waaaaaaaaaaah! so crude!!

deluxm: guess who i met too..

deluxm: syed???

guerrrilla: uuhh hint: eh sista......

guerrrilla: lasall

guerrrilla: irritant

guerrrilla: okay enuff clues

deluxm: sista

deluxm: jacklyn

deluxm: izzzit!!!

guerrrilla: no lah.....faggot

deluxm: adi

deluxm: razif

guerrrilla: no lah! too macho.......this dude do jewellery

deluxm: black guy

guerrrilla: chinese

guerrrilla: okayokayokay

deluxm: lemme think his name

guerrrilla: i say

deluxm: meng

guerrrilla: jimmy lah!!

deluxm: eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

deluxm: yuz

guerrrilla: yah!!

deluxm: really!

deluxm: !!!!!!!

guerrrilla: yup!

deluxm: did he say hi

deluxm: he muz b still wearing shorts

guerrrilla: yaaaah! omigawd omigawd did he ever say hi!

guerrrilla: yah! no tee shirt sumore

deluxm: soo utterly embarassing

guerrrilla: just jacket over

guerrrilla: i noe

deluxm: eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

guerrrilla: kan see his nipples

deluxm: wats that!!!!

guerrrilla: eeeewww

deluxm: yux

cartoon martini specs

2005-01-11T07:03:00.000+08:00

my cartoonmartini specs

2005-01-10T06:34:00.000+08:00

becareful what u do..

dun stick ur tongue out!
dun kick stones or pout!
dun let the boiling rage start!
dun let it take to the heart!
cos noone likes the crying part!

becareful what you do..

- sheil silverstone

tsunami

2005-01-03T04:03:00.000+08:00

lovefool

2004-12-27T04:29:00.000+08:00

lovefool

i dun believe in anybody feels the way i do about you now.

i dreamt of a fairy

2004-12-27T04:28:00.001+08:00

i dreamt of a fairy

http://www.swoon.com/run/DreamDiary/Dream?dreamID=4549

2004-12-27T04:27:00.000+08:00

my running nose

2004-12-26T05:55:00.000+08:00

xmas greetings

priceless treasures

2004-12-26T04:32:00.000+08:00

1st xmas was spent with anticipation, shoppping, cards, chocolates, booze, pressys, company, more food, K.B 1, piano, home, velvet. i met patricia, hannah eugenie and sme others.

in a short night, i simply felt gd getting out and meeting all and getting intoxicated with tons of vodka and hot peppery bar kut teh.

its my 2nd day of xmas!
today its more goodies, munching and napping and a grt movie.

what a grt start! father xmas so gd to me this yr after all! i met pple whom i wanted to! irregardless to my moody eve & what ive lost; time and an exhilarated xmas i wanted with few dearies, nevertheless, the patience, giving in, thought and effort frm em & all makes me feel excited & pleased again.

i like my pressys.
above all, i am thankful.
to the years of sweet friendship, love, joy, patience and support.
to u who have touched me this xmas.

1) hand-made teddy holding balloons -jeanie
2) choc fondue set -nadia
3) tim burtons candle set -irene
4) dating & sex worst case scenario survival handbk with beaded bookdrop -hannah
5) edna (incredibles) mug -jeanette (more to come!hee)
6) reusable heat pack i need so much for my usual cramps & discomfort -patricia
7) brooch for my jackets -hannah
8) bitter chocolates from royce -jeff
9) activa face mask - aunt june
10) cocoa butter scrub - aunt helen
11) room and linen spray -wendy
12) a swt kiss - daniel
13) crabtree & evelyn ginger crunch biscuits- rachel
14) see's candies (peanut brittle)- caroline
15) more choc cookies frm st michael -gavin
16) handmade card - nicole
17) keychain frm hawaii - caroline (michelle in hawaii is mikala)
18) flowers and recorded message -max. c
19) brandied fruit cake - alex
20) handmade card - cartoon seekum
21) personalized coasters - joseph gab
22) eggy my head jewellery display - mummy
23) mini gingerbread man cookies homebaked and sooo pretty! -kelsie&kyle
24) blackstone ring from armani to replace my broken one - pam
25) lavender satin&lace top from old navy i like so much - pam
26) beaded bracelet threaded by my littlest darlink with drawing attached- nicole
27) purple dusk nail colour from dior - naomi
28) godiva chocolats! patchi chocolats! - dylan

with love

updated on 6th day of xmas...

self control

2004-12-19T05:38:00.000+08:00

yes! say no to dates, late nights, fancy dinners, movies, naps! I must have lesser selfish thoughts.

Why? It is a the preparation to 2004 xmas! For my dear ones that mean so much to me. Until i finish preparing my gifts, greeting cards, snail mails, packages, crafts, i will have to stay out from those activities.

this could be my greatest challenge for dec o4!!!!

ok..let's make it realistic. 2 wks of staying home and saving enough money.

blogging..

2004-12-04T04:05:00.000+08:00

ive bn busy with activities with loved ones and events.

that ive not updated this space of mine.

yeah, like not spending time complaining. thats what a blog means to me.
for a sudden burst to write & cry out because you know far better ya cant relate and bottle that cup of bitterness. Yahyah, sharing gd and happy news but seriously why think of spending time on the computer then? SO, if im really bloggin less, THANK GOODNESS> im busy having exhilarating huge loads of fun, postphoning and delaying the wonderful thoughts and news.
whatever. bad excuse.

a blog.
a collective events of pple and fun and tragedy.

NOW! aft this break. its sorta like ya hve got so much so much bits to write abt im thinking hw to start.

So, i decided to get my wish list started for the month! woohoop.

http://froogle.google.com/shoppinglist?a=SWL&id=5bfd16632395ea663c4bacb5fecdabe09a99dc

2004-10-25T16:25:00.000+08:00

LaVieEnRose

Wish for today

2004-10-22T16:00:00.000+08:00

Wish for today

VISIT AN OLIVE GARDEN IN SPAIN & PRESERVE MY OWN HUGE JAR OF OLIVES. . .

OR
A GET-AWAY TO carribean puerto rico-PLAYA FLAMENCO BEACH!!!

2004-10-19T02:53:00.000+08:00

most of e bestest friends, relatives, cousins, moved overseas. *stinks*

jus spoke to 1 of them.

boyyeee...was i happy to hear this friend's voice! esp when cme to my mind today! talked abt sooo many stuffs. & will b visiting in nov! 4 days!!!!
we r gonna party patty chitychatty crappy wacky happy all night!

yeehh. supa excited when someone comes bac home for a visit!

ha-ha

2004-10-15T16:35:00.000+08:00

"ha-ha" : also means, ditch with a wall or fence in it, forming a boundry to a park or garden without interrupting the view.

soooo cute ..

Go check the wrd bible!!!

OVERDONED.

2004-10-05T02:46:00.000+08:00

" PERFECT BREAD FOR EVERYDAY: QUALITY INGREDIENTS, THE RIGHT DOSE (not too much OR little), SUFFICIENT EXPERIANCE, RIGHT TEMPERATURE & TIMING, & TO KNEAD WITH ATTENTION. "

SOMEDAYS, THE MORE U TRY, MORE INGREDIENTS & SPICES ADDED, INTERFERENCE, WRONG MOOD & LOST OF CONTROL, LEADS TO AN UPSETTED DOUGH.

TODAY,
I FEEL LIKE THIS CONFUSED DOUGH.
I HAVE CLEARLY LOST THE CULINARY BASICS. . .

poohpooh..

2004-10-01T20:51:00.000+08:00

Y DID TIGGER STICK HIS HEAD IN THE TOILET?????? ....

...HE WAS LOOKIN FOR POOH.

*choke*! poohpooh..kids are so fun. h

happiieeeY children's dayeee!!!

2004-10-01T04:54:00.000+08:00

pooh pooh..

Happieey children's dayeee! I have spent my entire mornin watchin cartoooons.

kid's central is playing FANtaStic cartoons one after another! OOooh. if i was a kid again, ill b lookin forward to nothing but cartoons cartoons & more cartoons on sundays morn. carebears, smurfys, tinytoons, roadrunner, mightymouse, ghostbusters.

*THINK* today's the kids' most anticipated & exciting day, watchin cartoons all day.

walk..ing towards destiny

2004-09-22T04:36:00.000+08:00

Meaning of Friends

2004-09-20T22:50:00.000+08:00

Yeeah! Diz 'A' list category hippie chick is coming back to sunny island! Nadia never fails to pick me up with her most comforting, original, daring or craziest way possible! YIPEeeeeee...happy fuzzy! oooooh. IM so excited.

Have so much to say, to thank her, wanna gib her a big fat hug & pinch her cheeks hard, scream & shout aloud>oooh imiss ya! her post of the spastic elastic paperklippies were extremely useful and i laughed so hard.

Hey, u heard that! See u soon.
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TODAY: go on STRIKE!!!

2004-08-29T01:28:00.000+08:00

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. COMRADE, WHY TOIL DAY IN DAY OUT FOR THE [SAKE OF THE BOUGEOISIE]???? WE SHOULD ORGANIZE RESISTANCE TO EXPLOITATION IN WORKPLACE, FORM A TRADE UNION & PASS A RESOLUTION IN FAVOUR OF A ONE-DAY GENREAL STRIKE. DEMAND BETTER CONDITIONS, A SAFER ENVIRONMENT, AND A BIGGER SHARE OF THE CAPILTALIST PIE...LONG LIVE THE STRUGGLE!

FANTASTIC IDEAS RUNNING IN MY HEAD...

TO SET UP & OPERATE A PROPER PICK-ET LINE.
YOU WILL NEED:
A LENGTH OF SOLID ROPE (NOTSTRING), SOMETHING TO TIE IT TO (THE OUTSIDE OF THE WORKPLACE'S CUBICLE), A LIST OF ANTI-SCAB SLOGANS TO CHANT, A BUCKET TO RECEIVE CONTRIBUTIONS FRM THE PUBLIC. STAND IN FRONT OF THE LINE & INTIMIDATE ANY SCAB WHO TRIES TO CROSS IT WITH VERY THREATENING EYE CONTACT. GRRrrrr..

FOR THE GUTLESS:
FILL A PAPER BAG FILLED WITH THE CONTRIBUTIONS & LIGHT IT UP AT 'HER' DOORSTEP. MANNN...I M REALLY GONNA DO IT. LALALA

SIGH...ALTERNATIVELY:
TOLERATE & ENDURE & SMILE, WITH A WHOLELOADS OF SLOGANS TO CHANT AFTER.

OTHERWISE:
GET A SICK LEAVE, DOUBLE BLUFF.

LAST:
FANTASIZE UR ENEMY'S HEAD ON UR DINNER PLATE. EAAAT UP!

Breath BETTA Feel BETTA

2004-08-07T04:21:00.000+08:00

"There's actually specific techniques of breathing to help cool down when ya feelin hot/stuffy. ?" CRAP?

WELL, i TRied it, whether or not. AND with a crowd, after shopping. (Ya know>bored, waitingtime.)
I read this once.
By cURlin~ ya tongue, & inhalin thru a series of short sips, it cn actually help ya to cool dwn~* ya gotta concentrated on an impression of coolness~like suckin an ice-cream! (imagine hw that looks) so, after the "siPpin" therapy... . . . . . . ..... ...close ur mouth, retained e air 4 a few secs & breath slowly thru ur nostrils. SO, diz is done repeatedly. ok. till ya feel a difference. !

i wun dare say its verdict. haha bt its funny.

1st foremost

2004-07-30T22:41:00.000+08:00

Definitely excited to post my writings of my 'preeetty' world, to meet friends, to read more, wonder what else. lemme get adjusted. Later.